I have always thought myself to be a stand up guy. A guy you can trust. Ive always thought myself to be that friend you can rely on, and trust with your life. Well, I fucked up.
My entire life i have always thought of myself as being a gambler. I will take chances. Ive always believed that if you never take chances, you will never get the rewards. So i take chances. Recently, i thought i had a chance with a girl, who had just been dumped by one of my best friends. I was honest with him, and he told me not to. I listend to her instead of him. I believed what she told me, time after time. I believed her. I believed that my friend was stabbing me in the back. I believed he was a douchebag. Which honestly, he is. But am i any better? After all this, i cant help but question myself.
Well, on friday, him and i made plans to hang, and there was a miscommunication. I was pissed and thought he bailed on me. He apologized today, and we ended up just talking in person and going for a walk to talk things out. He told her we were together, and she assumed i had thrown her under the bus, which i hadnt. he caught her in a trap, and she took the bait. so then we talked everything out. i came clean, as did he.
But all being said, Im betrayed my friend. I broke the golden rule of manhood, Bro’s Before Hoes. One of the people i really respect told me that i made a mistake, and im human. Therefore, i can learn from my mistake, and not repeat it. I believe this. I have to take a look in the mirror. I have to be the person i truely want to be.
