You know that guy, who is always the friend. He’s cool with everybody. He’s a really nice guy. Everybody likes him, and wishes him the best. But in the end, everything ends up being shitty for him. Well, Im that guy.
I have technically only been in one official relationship, but ive basically had three. The first, it wasnt official, and we kinda just “had fun”. Well, twice-ish. She didnt want a relationship. And eventually I moved on to my first official relationship. This was for the best, but still. I kinda got screwed. She had other guys, and i kinda got burned. But nothing too bad. Then there was my first official relationship. My first real love. And this was a solid relationship, which i was very patient. And i was very thoughtful of her. I felt like i knew her better then i knew myself. Today, i found out that after we broke up, she moved on VERY quickly. Lets just say, her next boyfriend didnt have to be so patient or thoughtful. And then she lied to me about it, and told me she wanted to get back with me. In fact, we were “getting back together” about 4 or 5 times since we broke up. All the while, she had moved on. And then eventually, there was my latest whatever you want to call in. In which i got played/lied to/used. And it wasnt in the good ways. I got nothing to show forth from all of it.
So yeah. Three relationships. 1 common demoniator, I GET FUCKED OVER. I could handle having some bad luck, but this is getting rediculous. In each situation, each girl has moved on, or was never really into me. #1, always had other guys she was “having fun with”. and now, she has a great relationship and has everything she’s ever wanted. and “having fun” regularly. #2 was my first love, and apparently she moved on after a couple weeks and hasnt looked back. except to decieve me and do all the things i wanted her to do, just with someone else. and the funny part is, after what she told me, its like i have no idea who she is. what she did, is the one thing she has always said she hates. way to be a hypocrit. #3, was using me to make my best friend jealous. i meant nothing to her. and i got played. all the while, she was “having fun” behind my back. awesome. seems to be a common trend. I get fucked over, and everyone else just gets fucked.
its like im Dane Cook’s character from Good Luck Chuck. Just he gets to “have fun”, and be the be the key to each girl finding their true loves. For me, i just get screwed over, and they get what they truely want, which seems to be someone else. Maybe im just going through some bad luck with girls. Its only three girls. But then there was one other, who wanted to date, but decided to make out with my buddy, and lie about it. yeah…. about that… kinda a deal breaker. But i dont really count that one, cuz i mean, it was a good thing i found about that. and then again, #3 happend at a good time too, before i would have been really hurt by everything.
but what is killing me on this, is that it feels like whenever i can accept something as being a reality, it turns out to be false. i can have something i believe, and then it becomes fake. i find out the truth, and it always makes sense. the things that didnt make sense always make sense, but end up screwing with my head.
but what i can see as real is the fact that, in the end, i get fucked over, and everyone else just gets fucked.
